Hold in there Matty. Know where you're coming from, went through a really bad break up after a 3 year relationship about 3 years ago, tore my life apart at the time but everything runs its course and does get better mate! 100% with Raband, get in contact with an old friend, someone with an outside perspective. And another piece of advice is to keep busy! Don't sit around at home reminding yourself of everything non stop. Go catch up with some mates, voice your feelings, the load is so much lighter when it's not all on your head.