Mate it will get better if you help it. Time is the best thing on your side. And don't make decisions you may regret toomoorw. I've been married 5years, Have two kids - planned on having one but he came 11 weeks premature & has Down syndrome, spent months in special care and so on, we made the choice after 6months of he's arrival to have another so he had help & comfort of another sibling. Was a good choice but boy she's a daddy's girl now 5 turning 25! We have had our fare share of ups and downs, I have been cheated on several occasions and don't ask me why I'm still around :/ yeah I love her and the kids but unfortunately I'm sacrificing my happiness for the kids. I believe they deserve a mother & father in there life so I'm still living in the same house, yes we identify as "single" but things inside are truly fuxxed up. She's happy but I'm stuffed! The sh*t I've been put threw and suffered yet no body at all sees it or cares. Some days I regret not getting up and walking away the day I found out she cheated. If it wasn't for the kids she wouldn't see my face ever again. I think yeah my problems may seem bad but there's always someone somewhere worse off, Either losing loved ones or life! It could be worse. Chin up you will get there As for porn, for mobile xvideos is the best