This is me and j@ to a tee.
We were inseparable from pretty much the moment we met, which is weird coz we’re not the romantic types pre being together. We literally had every disadvantage throw our way and still spent nearly 100% of time together and would move heaven and earth just to get an extra ten minutes together.
Two babies, pnd, depression, 2 major deaths, and some pretty serious other stuff and yeah we’ve had our fair share of crap times... but to this day all I wanna do is hang with him over and above anyone else on the face of the earth, we’re best friends.
I think its it’s hard if you haven’t had that kinda connection with someone to identify what it feels like, and to be fair until recently I never appreciated to it’s full extent how special it is.
Stripes you will figure it out and move forward either way, it’s a positive.... you’re a really nice guy and you deserve to be happy and I’m sure either way, weather she’s the one or not, you will find that happiness moving forward.
Best of luck with the communication thing and if she’s willing to come to the party then it’s a huge step forward!